https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/nokia-ceo-ended-his-speech-saying-we-didnt-do-anything-rahul-gupta?trk=hp-feed-article-title-like This is what exactly happened to me on pokerstars. Didnt do anything wrong....i just didnt adopted in new enviroment.
BIG UPDATE ... Long time i didnt posted anything related to my poker career , so i will post big update now ... Where to start i am asking myself, so ill start from the end of 2015/ beginning of 2016. As , some of you know, 2015 was most successful year regard poker ( since i turned to be pro 4years ago ) ... in october 2015 one of my dreams come true, that i am able to return to my hometown and have freedom that i deserved. That move to my hometown, was best idea/thing that happened to me, i've got all freedom i always wanted to have , and i can enjoy small things and to make my life happy. As end of 2015 approached more grind awaited me , and i manage to reach my goals few hours before new year eve :) , was nice feeling . My contract with current staker expired , 3 successful years , when i remember i started from 0, than in 2013 i reached SN status, than in 2014 reach first SNE and my dream come true, in 2015 once again reached SNE with even better results . I was thinking what next move should be(cose i was only one who remained SNE from all horses 5 of em was SNE) , and i said to myself why not keep playing for same staker(my friend as well), i was happy he was happy. He gived me contract that every poker player can dream off , and i couldnt refuse that offer. I also invested alot of my winnings into man cave/office , it was ex.garage/some kind of kitchen, re-build from scratch . It was pile of junk , now looks pretty nice ( i will post pictures soon ). Main idea was to build offce/man cave in one place, but separated with doors, so i can have full enjoyment of my game and on breaks to relax myself , and get ready for next session. So at the end of january building man cave / office started (but due bad weather it took more than usual to complete ). Regard poker, 2016 start was very furious for me , was on big heater , won solid amount of money in january - mid feb. , than everything start going down . Games at 100's become tougher, i start losing control/making bad moves, i just start losing , getting owned , start making bad moves and so on also run something like 300bi under ev(but thats not explanation for my game). 45 days ago i found new coach, very promising player, and very good player, and i start working on my game again. I dropped to 60's to try new strategy and so on ... i need a lot to learn before i am able to go higher. So , beside bad run/bad play, things start going better , new coach, new theory , man cave/office almost ready to get in, and so on ... But... there is always but... right ? In same time after i found new coach, my staker / friend told me that he's very sick , and that i need to handle things on my own until he's get better . I said ok , i dont want to push you more, get better and when you feel better we will sort out everything . I didnt spoke with him for week or two, than one day i've heard that he's in hospital and he's very sick . First , he told me that he have Lyme disease for 17 years , and that doctors found that out, than after few days he have"Guillain-Barré Syndrome" .... and that he start losing sense , motorical sense and mental sense. Friend of my brother, got that syndrome 2months ago, and he successfully recovered, and i told my staker not to worry cose its curable, not so easy to recover, but it can be threated and cured without problems. I didnt received any response, few days later he just wrote me on skype , its not that disease i've got prion disease with 100% fatal end- no cure. Than , he wrote me , i am going to die we had to end our agreement. In that moment my entire world broke, i've start having such a bad time, thinking that i am going to lose friend( even i didnt meet him in person ), he helped me when was hardest for me and my family , saved my life , and now i cant do anything. I cant help him, cant tell him anything(he was in hospital i was calling him but he didnt responded) , i just seat and cry all the time, i wanted to sleep but i couldnt sleep for days and so on ... few friends from Canada visited him, and he told em that he plan to go to Swiss, cose Swiss is only country in world that support suicide / euthanasia. Prion disease is 100% fatal, and you suffer a lot, he wrote me on skype i dont want to suffer, i want to end. We tried (all ppl that know him) , and tried to speak with him, to try to go find other doctors, not to give up , and he finally decided to visit other doctors, he found best neurosurgeon in the world, and he might cure him. That was great news , he didnt gived up on his life , and he will continue to fight. Cose of all those things, i didnt played for last 15-20 days or smth. cose i couldnt, i couldnt sit in front of computer i was thinking about him every time i sit . He told me i can continue playing for him , and i fired up few tables just to see how everything look... i will wait to move my rig to office, and than to start massive grind in next 3months, will do some sick volume, and i will do 120% of myself all the time , and will see how it will go . I really hope everything will turn out good/great at the end. Cheers , until next read (hope with even better post).
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